Go Ahead It’s Just Sprinkling-Breaking Beyond Life Barriers

Sitting down tying my shoes I heard Gram yell over from the next room… “Mija, it’s starting to rain.”

I quickly finished tying up my shoes and walked over to acknowledge Gram. I could sense my defenses rising and a hesitance about walking in the rain.

“Should I take a jacket? Maybe I shouldn’t go?”

Grams response… “Mija, go ahead it’s just sprinkling.”

I threw on my hat, grabbed for my walking stick, and headed out the door.

The intensity of the sprinkling started picking up after rounding the corner of the second block. I slowed down and contemplated turning back. I thought to myself…

“I don’t have an umbrella. What if the concrete gets too slippery and I fall. I should seriously turn back…”.

I quickly convinced myself to keep going (“Gram says it’s just sprinkling!”).

About a mile, into the walk the sprinkling turned to rain and it started coming down hard. I was about to get annoyed, and then something happened.

I found myself at the intersection where I normally turn around and head back home. Next thing you know I was pushing on the traffic signal button with the intention of walking across the street.

Beyond that intersection, about half a mile up is the grocery store and Target. When I first moved in with Gram I could only dream of walking to the grocery store. I envisioned walking to the store, shopping independently, purchasing a few items, and walking back home.

On a day filled with excuses and my walk threatened by weather, I realized I was MUCH CLOSER to my goal of shopping independence than ever!

I moved beyond that intersection, reached the grocery store in the pouring rain, turned around and headed home.

Walking home in the rain felt AWESOME! I didn’t have time to worry about feeling yucky because I was so pumped that I hit a significant milestone.

The WEIRD THING was, the last few blocks walking back home the rain let up, and it was back to… “It’s just sprinkling!”.

As I headed up the driveway, Gram greeted me at the door.

“I feel so guilty that I pushed you to go. I didn’t think it was going to start raining like that…”.

My response…

“Gram! I made it to the store, take my picture.”.

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Had to share this photo! Gram’s first few shots using the iPhone camera. Guess you don’t need to see my head. heheh Pants, shoes and 1/2 of my shirt were soaked. Rain never felt so good!

The lesson…

Hesitation, fear, excuses, pressure, outside factors are simply distractions. When all those barriers are up, and you push beyond those distractions you began to reach the seemingly “impossible” goals.

Much love,
Marissa

14 comments

  1. Yippee for shopping independence!
    That is amazing wonderful news that you reached such a major achievement.
    I love your “gram” stories!

    • Linda! Now that I was able to reach the store, I am hoping to build up enough stamina to be able to shop and turn around and head back home!:) Excited for what’s possible.

      Much love,
      Marissa

  2. That’s awesome. I know the feeling. I remember the farthest that I ever drove in my wheelchair. I went all the way across Mississippi State’s campus (we a large campus) to a restaurant that was just off campus. I was king of the world!

    Go team Marissa/Gram! :-)

  3. Woohoo!! Go Marissa!!

    Good for you and what a brilliant achievement you have made – it’s such a big achievement and hope you gain even more achievements. Am so proud of you – and thank you for putting a massive smile on my face.

    :)

    • Thanks so much Rhiann! It means so much to me. Pumped that I was able to put a smile on your face. You rock.

      Much love,
      Marissa

  4. Hi Marissa. I am new to your blog and I love it. I am struggling with the same vestibular problems as you and am housebound at the moment. You have given me so many ideas for tackling this awful condition and I admire your battles against this. I’m in the UK. Good luck and look forward to reading more. Susanna x

    • Susanna,

      Your comment seriously pumps me up! I totally understand the enormity of what you are facing. Know you are NOT in this alone and that you have someone here who has your back! Shoot me an email and let’s connect… marissa@abledis.com. Just remember, take one thing that is still in your control and focus on that. That has certainly served me well. One example: weight loss. I am working alongside my friend Sarah, and we are committed to losing weight. What I appreciate about the process if that regardless of the vestibular stuff I can still control what I put in my mouth and that gives me a sense of accomplishment. It’s baby steps. Hang in Susanna.

      Much love,
      Marissa

  5. I love this beyond words! Way to go girl! Such an inspiration to remind us all that sometimes its ok to push ourselves just a little bit. Its amazing the things we can accomplish when we do! Give Gram a hug for me :-)

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